Wednesday, June 22, 2011

In which this is the end

I've been mulling it over these past few days, and I've decided that this is going to be my last post. It's nothing personal. I love my readers, like a ton. But this part of my life is something that I just want to forget about at the moment. Plus, what exactly would I write about next? the glorious life of a resturaunt host? My adventures in chemo? It all seems kind of odd compared to the last few months. Odd and wonderful. I hope you don't mind my selfishness and let me keep my journey into the real world for myself.

I don't know, maybe I'll blog again. Maybe I'll get back to writing Jensen Falls. But not right now. Right now I've got a lot of other stuff on my mind. So thank you guy for reading, for giving advice, for believing in me.

Thank you especially for believing in me.

Lazarus sent me an email. I'm probably just going to ignore it, but it felt weird not to show to you guys. So here you go. And goodbye.

Lazarus' email

Anya contacted me. She said that you were at the hospital, and I felt like I needed to wish you well. I know that we have had our differences, and I have done many things that you hate me for. But I do hope that you get well soon, and commend you on saving Anya. I do hope they are testing you extensively at the hospital. Disease is one of his weapons.

I think that you have a terribly negative perception of me. And I do regret that. I'm just trying to do what you are: save children. Take Anya for example. She is alive, but how do you think the sort of trauma she's been through is going to affect her? Not that I am saying that it isn't worth it, but she's going to spend her entire life looking over her shoulder. How will she cope when every day she's worried about death lurking around the corner? One benfit about the Noctis' methods is that most of the time, the child is unaware about anything but the original stalking. We save them the fear of the situation. We give them a childhood. The people we choose for the exchange have lived their lives already.

I know you hate me. I know this will probably not change your mind. But you should think about it. I am not the villain.

If you need anything at all, please let me know. Aside from that, I can't say that we'll ever meet again.



  1. Have a nice life AJ, you've earned it :D

  2. You are such an odd creature, AJ. You allowed your mind to become dominated by the beast, risking the life of a mere child in the process. On another occasion, to another being, I would consider this quite the crime.

    Yet, in the end, you defied the monster. You refused to give in to the fear and the terror that he's stricken in so much of the rabble that clutters this so-called community. You removed the shackles he placed upon you and acted to save a precious life. You've overcome things so many others succumbed to, and as such, you have earned my respect.

    I wish you only the best in your current battle. I would very much like to meet you and Anya someday.